My Coward Self

Because of my coward self,
Because I’m afraid of being hurt,
Because I dare not show myself.
I stood there behind a group of people...
And wave my goodbye here.
I know you all are leaving for good.
This is my only chance...
To ask forgiveness and make you all stay.
But the cowardliness of myself, showed me how,
I silently cry my heart out behind your back.
I couldn’t run towards you all,
I couldn’t show myself to you.
Because all I ever give you is pain.
This painful moment will not fade away easily.
Your crying face is all I could remember.
I can’t even say the simplest word... “Sorry.”
To set things straight.
So here I stood by myself... hiding,
Crying alone while waving my final goodbyes likes a fool.
My cowardliness leaves me only loneliness.
This is the price I pay for being coward.
My punishment...