All the test and blood taking, really worn a person. I never felt more alone then this.
My uncle... he wasn't here, no one is anyway. These few days that went by, allows me to see what i would be missing the most once an ending comes...
I can't believe I'm saying this... but the truth is there is so much I wish I had done with them. So at least there would me memories of them that I could keep with me. I never knew any cooler DAD that him, one whose attention is worth having and whose love is greater beyond the ocean...
My Brothers whom i didn't had enough time to watch them grow, they were the best part of my life. you know the feeling of being called "Big Sister" by such adorable loving and hyperactive brothers... was my gift from heaven. Their innocence alone is enough to brighten my gloomy dark world...
All i could talk about now is only them but not my Mum... I didn't see her much.
Wish my Uncle could stay with me....
" I know he tried his best...
I know he wants to be there for me when the time comes,
Even when it'll hurt me the most,
He rather silent his mouth and watch me go through all of it.
Because he knew only then I would be able to pick myself up,
and move forward even when I'm uncertain of my own future.
About how I lie to myself every day saying that I'm OK..,
Or how I spent my time counting the days ahead of me,
Or even how I cried my way to bed every night....
He knew about it all this while even without saying it...
Now, all he ever tried to do was be there for me and hold my hand
in these last moments of goodbyes,
After which i knew he would I knew how he sat beside my bed
and wipe my tears as lay in slumber...
Because all he Ever tried to do was make me a stronger person that I was...."
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