On every drown from the universe,
The world flooded from the crying sky,
I missed you the most in that time.
While being soaked and drenched by the sky,
My heart clenched in the coldness that wraps within me,
The numbness of my heart keeps the pain so ever,
Fresh in my last bit memories of you.
And all the fear and wound ripped back open,
All the time I took to heal it,
Wasted effort but nothing changed since.
I was always that girl that cry my pain in silence in front others.
And even when my heart broke too many times before my love,
It’s my heart, me he never sees crying.
I tried screaming the pain to release the burden that only weight me down,
But my voice never reached him even when I’m here before him.
I couldn’t love nor cry for myself cause all this time,
I only tried my best to savage what’s left between love and him.
I didn’t see loneliness coming till it knocked open my doors,
It took over me too soon before I could barely content my own heart at hand.
The feeling of trapped not able to go back or forward,
What do he knows about it.
I had to swallow that guilt for hurting him subconsciously,
I had to bear all the pain alone of being hurt in return.
I carried the blame on my shoulders and shut my heart from saying the truth.
Even when the truth could set me free from him...
Everyday I watch him hurt me, scared me deeper like a sharp knife,
Stabbing me and slicing through my skin.
While bleeding half dead here alone, no help came to aid me.
I remember me holding my knees to my chest to comfort my wounds,
Till I finally said to my soul “enough, this is enough!”
I hold back my tears for as long I recall how to start breathing again,
Run through those doors forced it open,
And the surrounding started raining that very day.
I recall myself... learning to live again...
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