My Mum...

Dear Mum...
Something about you that I hated all this years,
Turnout to be the most hurtful lies you had to tolerate for me.
I never understood your intention,
But now I see as to why you rather take all my hatred,
And leave me with only good memories of my dad.
You took in his betrayal and all the pain by yourself,
Accepting all his mistakes and still try to make it through.
You hid away your tears too long,
I barely recall when was the last I saw you cry,
I cannot understand your sacrifice,
But I understood one thing,
How everything then made you stronger now before me.
I couldn’t imagine what he must have said to you when you knew his affair,
But looking at how you shield me away from the truth,
Tells me how much courage it must have taken you,
To numb your heart and put my happiness above yours.
Now as much as I wish to say “I’m Sorry”.
You only tell me “no... Don’t apologised,”
I stood there and hear you say the words,
Words imp sure you never wanted to say to me... your feelings.
How could you make me blame it all on you?
All you said was...
“Because you are my son, and I love you.”
You a mother I never knew well,
You were much braver then I thought you were.
I couldn’t be any more thankful now I know the truth.
So please accept my thanks.... and I’m sorry for all the times you cried for me.
Ren Guang Xi.