I Cried

That every minute you cherished, the special moments,
You kept them all inside even while facing the loneliness.
I was only trying to run away pushing those memories out of my mind,
Even when I already knew the truth,
It’s my identity I’m afraid to reveal to you.
Even when the depth of my heart could barely contain your flowing tears,
It’s the truth I’m most afraid you knew now then later on.
Even when I showering you with that love I thought I lost before,
It’s still you that I barely get to hold on long enough for you to love me in return,
I wanted so much to scream my longing for you,
Run to you whenever you called, hold you close like before.
But every time you looked at me with those soft gentle eyes of yours,
I knew it’s my previous image of myself flashed before you.
You would tear the pain for hurting me then,
But you never could see me now all changed and revengeful before you.
You believed in our love like it’s a treasure worth losing your life for,
While I stood there hurting you over and over again with lies told from the past.
When I saw you broke apart just by looking at me,
Screaming for me all hurtful and on your knees begging me,
I realised I hurt you too much,
I’m unworthy for that love you guarded all this time.
So now inside while looking at your back facing my gaze,
Deep inside I regretted that pain I inflicted upon you.
I regretted the years I made you cry for,
I hated myself for all those tears I left you crying for now.