us.. our last

I couldn’t do anything for you,
Except hurting you more...
I couldn’t even cry with you,
When you began to tearing,
I couldn’t even hold us together...
Even when I knew this is our last chance...
Since I can’t ask you to leave me,
I have no choice but to force you out of me....

I never meant to hurt “Us”.
Because what we had was the last chance...
We seek this opportunity more than anything left between us.
But I couldn’t lie to myself….
I couldn’t lie to you about my betrayal…
I know since knowing it happened…
It changes everything including us.

We can try to rewrite that same part,
Over and over again,
Still we can never pretend like it never happen.
We both got hurt by it…
Even when it began with your fault…
But still it ended as my mistake…
And that is something I cannot ignore.

When we got hurt this much…
Because we tried to ease our pain by lying,
Lying that thing will be better,
Lying that everything is just history…
So answer me now…
Can you still embrace me in your arms after what I did?
Can you truly pretend to not care about everything?
No… no you can’t.

If you embrace me,
You would felt his warmth lingering on my skin.
If you try to kiss me,
Then you’ll taste his kisses on my lips.
And when you hold my hands…
Your skin will burn because by every touch of mine.
Can you still call this love?

For once listen to me,
Love is just another fairytale with an illusion happy ending.
We cannot force to love or love to follow.
Because we are no longer fools…
If back then you left first.
Allow me to be the first to leave this time.
Because unlike you I can’t lie anymore,
I can’t pretend anymore…
I can only inflict pain in your heart,
To a point where I could just tear them apart…

I very well knew this is our last chance…
Last chance to make thing right again.
But we should stop using our heart to solve our needs,
We should just let it go because it’s time we end it here.