I may not be the best person in this world. Even like any others that makes mistake.. but I make mistakes that can never be forgiven. Those who know me will tell you i'm a monster. But its true. I often live on others pain as my own hapiness. If you grew up the way i did then you'll understand my words. Growing up was not easy, especially the only thing that trouble me.. doesn't provide me with any strength are scars and marks that is left by my childhood memories.
Still many time i gave myself chances to mend my ways but i often disappoint not only myself but also people around me.
I turn 17 when i find out i was adopted. Only god knows how it pains me. Knowing that people that i often call family my entier life actually shares no blood ties leaves me feeling guilty of all times when i hurt and break each of their heart. So by making their life a little easier to breath i move out of that home. thats what that women always wanted.
Even though i have a loving Uncle in my life whom i'm staying with.. I just don't feel right to always be holding on to him. I just wish i could disappear for good. Then maybe it would have been better for everyone.
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