You'll never know...

You were never there when i needed you the most..
You were never close as i thought you'll always be..
You only care for someone else...
And that someone has to be the most dearest to me...
My best friend...

I hate being cheated like this...
You never knew how much it hurts knowing the truth...
How my heart ache... When i misses you...
How i envy.. looking at the both of you together..
You'll never know what i feel except hers..

I can't pretend to not know what's going on...

I can't lie about not knowing the truth...

I can't go through this, like a fool everyday...

I can't buried everything and make you come back...

I can't force love out of you either...

I don't know how to tell you the truth about everything...

Because I'm always afraid that you might hate me for that..

I can't hurt her because she's my Best friend...

One can i can never replace..

And i can't hurt you because it would hurt me just as much..

So what should i do??

Don't blame me if i run away like a coward..

Or do something bad to hurt myself..

I can't help it...

Thinking that unknowingly..

I might have interfere in your relationship first..

I want us to end this miserable painful feeling in a good terms,

so that when many years passes us by..

Where fate would cross our path again..

We will have no regrets... of what our past holds.....