Goo Jun Pyo's feelings

Goo Jun Pyo's feelings

What has happen that cause you a drastic change?
What are you thinking as you made such sacrifice without thinking of your own sufferings?
Is all this worth it? Tell me…
How can you missed her so much and pretend to not care?
What do you really feel as you learn to lie about your feelings?
How are you going to manage yourself if you face her near future?

At a point we finally meet…
All those painful word spoken in that split seconds…
Must have hurt not only her heart. Yours too
So where did you find that strength to clench those fist and burst out cruelty?
How hard did you try to ignore that pain inside you?
Were all you promises a lie…
Ask yourself if you could erase her existence in your heart!

When she cried right in front of you, yet you choose not to face her…
Because deep inside you have begin to tear…
You were trying hard to let go…
But you can’t…
So you began to be afraid that if knowing you have cried..
It still means you are weak.
You’re afraid of turning soft in front of her…
So you rather hurt her that way…

If given a choice on what to do…
I’m sure you felt like holding her in your arms then…
Honestly was your heart crying silently as you watch her go?

In times of longing…
It pains a lot to watch you swallow that much of burden for love…
There must be times you felt like throwing that burden,
And start running to her…
But you stop yourself because of the promise you made with your father…
That’s what holding you back.

So tell me…
How did you get through this misery without a word?
Watching her from far, looking at her pictures and what??
Recalling her every touch, her smile, her kiss?
Is forever enough just by watching her smiles from picture
Or a distance without a touch?
Were you fine as you watch someone else holding her and not you?

So scream… As loud as you can… Let the world hear you.
Cry as much as you want if that would comfort your pain…
Express your deepest emotion so you can continue to numb your heart…
Even when there is no Happy Ending ..
>Boys Before Flower<