Kang Maru’s first love: A Monster

I wanted her so much to look at me,

So I shield her from the cruelty the world had showered her,

We were so young and wasted,

I thought back then it was true love,

So I pleaded guilty to her crimes,

And spent these few years in a four wall prison,

Throwing away a future I could have.      

What I didn’t expect was what becomes of her while I’m away.

Because I wanted to save her from her fears,

That I made her into a monster unknowingly,

She couldn’t tell the right from the wrong,

While she continue to used people then hurting them,

I clearly saw how greedy a beast she turns herself into.

Yet because I’m so blinded by my feelings,

I miserably refuse to see the sin that she had made,

And continue to held on her and waited like a fool,

Believing someday she might just come to her senses,

And see the light then come back straight to my arms.

But she screwed up big this time,

She is so messed up,

That the blood that stains her hands can never be cleansed.

She is like a speeding car without any brakes,

While she continue to accelerate without any destination in mind,

I fear that she might just crash soon.

But to her... I felt so sorry and guilty.

If only I had her confessed her mistakes back then,

Let her face the reality and pay her dues,

I would have promised her, I’ll wait patiently for her to return.

Be more understanding and kind.

I’ll endure whatever comes and bravely face it with her,

I’ll give her every bit of me and accept everything she is,

I swear with my life to give her happiness and be there to wipe her tears,

But to her also... I’m begging.

Please understand that I’ll give her everything she needs,

But don’t ask me about love,

Because I don’t think I could sincerely love her.

Since my heart already know to whom it belongs...