My half broken Heart

I finally understood,

What it meant by having a haunting past,

Whatever I did in the past,

Now I’m paying them all with guilt that I cannot shoulder,

Finally all my life love has found me,

Yet at the most happiest I've been,

A chapter from the history waltz in unwelcome,

I refused to see the mistakes,

Yet knowing the truth will hurt,

I cruelly push my love away.

I not only left her hanging with my silence,

But I broke her heart that finally opened its doors for me.

And now there is nothing more I could do to set things right.

I couldn't let her share my mistakes,

Neither could I let her go as I thought I could.

So I continue to break her heart,

And watched my own shattered beyond repair.

Every day I would watch her cry for my sins,

And there is really nothing i could say to console her heart.

Even if I scream to apologies,

With the guilt i have at hand,

I’m scared I might just stain her pure heart that i love so much.

Even as much as I wish to erase everything and run towards her,

I’ll hold it all back and blindly pray happiness will eventually meet her.

                                                                                                -Do Jin’s heart

Kang Maru’s first love: A Monster

I wanted her so much to look at me,

So I shield her from the cruelty the world had showered her,

We were so young and wasted,

I thought back then it was true love,

So I pleaded guilty to her crimes,

And spent these few years in a four wall prison,

Throwing away a future I could have.      

What I didn’t expect was what becomes of her while I’m away.

Because I wanted to save her from her fears,

That I made her into a monster unknowingly,

She couldn’t tell the right from the wrong,

While she continue to used people then hurting them,

I clearly saw how greedy a beast she turns herself into.

Yet because I’m so blinded by my feelings,

I miserably refuse to see the sin that she had made,

And continue to held on her and waited like a fool,

Believing someday she might just come to her senses,

And see the light then come back straight to my arms.

But she screwed up big this time,

She is so messed up,

That the blood that stains her hands can never be cleansed.

She is like a speeding car without any brakes,

While she continue to accelerate without any destination in mind,

I fear that she might just crash soon.

But to her... I felt so sorry and guilty.

If only I had her confessed her mistakes back then,

Let her face the reality and pay her dues,

I would have promised her, I’ll wait patiently for her to return.

Be more understanding and kind.

I’ll endure whatever comes and bravely face it with her,

I’ll give her every bit of me and accept everything she is,

I swear with my life to give her happiness and be there to wipe her tears,

But to her also... I’m begging.

Please understand that I’ll give her everything she needs,

But don’t ask me about love,

Because I don’t think I could sincerely love her.

Since my heart already know to whom it belongs...

Kang Ma Ru... First love

The most disastrous period in my life,

Was my first encounter with love...

I had loved her since I first laid eyes on her,

I would do just about anything to win her affection,

Yet the one thing that I sacrifice,

Was a future I could have... All because I loved her.

I took the blame that imprison me my youth,

I thought while I'm here paying her dues,

She would come to love me as I am,

While I waited for the day freedom would set me free,

But I was wrong...

I'm just nothing more to her then "a man whom would die for her".

A puppet with no emotion that's what she made of me.

I stayed here waiting for her to come to her senses,

Even when the disappointment kept coming,

I patiently waited for her only to see how I had only been used.

And repeatedly been made a fool...

I'm a fool, to love her with all my heart.