better future

We can’t choose who we are,

But we should at least choose to be good...

Even when our childhood is a mess,

And all the chapters are filled with cursing times,

But if we try hard to do small miracle,

Changes will come easily.

No one say trying is going to be easy,

But as long as we believe there is a chance to a better future,

Why stay and be trapped in the cold dark shadow?

It’s true that we can never change how the world view us,

All the tainted past that will keep sticking on us,

Like how a leech thirst for blood,

Still if we want to achieve a dream,

A life without judgement and pain,

Try.. Keep trying even when the odds are against you.

Keep clenching that fist and marched forward,

No matter how bad you fall now,

Just stand up and do it all over again.

You’ll never be called a failure if u continues to try.

Being an Adult

I forgot I was only 23yrs old,
What do I know about being an adult?
But yes because I was so busy trying to be an adult,
That I forgot that I had tortured myself...
I didn't love myself enough to want to be happy,
That I rather watch my own destruction.
Instead of screaming out the painful wound that tore my heart apart...
I silent them behind all the smile I pasted on my face,
Even my friend they don't see my drowning tears behind my mask.
But these adults they forgot who they are...
So busy asking me to face reality but when reality comes knocking on their doors,
All they did was shut it and run...
One thing I learn that day one year ago...
Was how I stood there trying to collect pieces of me,
While watching that one adult packed his bag and ran out that front door...
If only I knew what that "leaving" meant,
Maybe I would have the courage to give myself a chance to live again.
But because I felt so guilty for our lost,
That I shut the door then punished myself,
I didn't thought of my brother not once since that day,
I beat myself at work till I'm all drained,
I hunger my heart from memories of him,
I staved my soul by letting time take away my smile...
And yes this was me being an adult!
But you called and saying sorry one year later...
That's you finally being an adult.
It wouldn't change what you did... Never forgiving you.

Cinta Adam

Tanpa berkata... Tanpa perasaan...
Semuanya aku redha dengan takdir kita...
Aku membekukan Hatiku dari terus mencintainya,
Aku pergi dengan kerelaan hati sendiri,
Demi kebahagian dia segalanya akan aku lakukan,
Aku merobek Hatiku sendiri demi seorang Adam,
Kerana dia terlah melupai aku,
Dan pergi mencari cinta dari seorang Hawa,
Insan yang terlah menemaninya siang dan malam...
Dia yang mampu menenangkan jiwanya,
Dia yang mampu mengubati luka dalam hatinya,
Untuk apa aku cuba untuk menawar hatinya sekali lagi,
Kalau dia lebih yakin cintanya untuk yang lain bukan aku.

Meskipun aku sangat mencintainya,
Meskipun meninggalkannya jiwa aku terluka,
Meskipun kegelapan datang menjemput aku...
Meskipun aku sendiri menanggung kesunyian yang membasahi hati ini,
Aku tetap mendoakan Adam kau dipertemukan Hawa mu.
Suatu masa Jika Allah s.w.t mengembalikan ingatan mu,
Dan aku pun terlah pergi mencari kebahagiaan ku,
Aku sungguh mengharapkan kau...
Adam tolong relakan pemergian aku dengan redha,
Kerana disisih Mu kau terlah menemui permata hatimu.
Sudah tertulis ditakdir yang kita akan berpisah,
Jika aku mampu tulus dan ikhlas lalu redha dengan takdir ku,
Mengapa kau Adam harus marahi takdir ini?
Sedangkan Allah s.w.t. Terlalu menyangi hambanya tanpa batas,
Kita harus akur dengan suratan Takdir yang terlah dituliskan,
Mungkin aku bukan untuk mu, Adam...
Tiba masa janji yeh... Redhakanlah takdir....