Can’t change what our love is...

Can’t change what our love is,
How I stop myself from running to you,
Turning my back for the first time,
And make my exit without you,
I regretted giving you that chance,
Playing me out like a fool again,
Breaking my heart over and over again.
Either I was blind,
When the signs had been there for a while,
Either I was deaf,
To not hear the tune had changed.
A little too late to turn back...

Can’t change what our love is,
After the heartbreaking times,
Finally I pulled through the storm and survived.
Fixing my heart every day,
Taping it together again and again,
Not looking back at what was there,
Leaving everything I was before,
Hiding and wishing that I would just evaporate to the sky,
Always running further away from time,
Praying someday life will forget me being here.

Can’t change what our love is,
Another chapter I erased every morning,
And still plenty more to go,
“Hanging in there!” I tell myself,
Hoping someday when I’m thru with myself,
I finally become brave again to open the door and love again,
And then if we ever met by coincidence,
I might stand before you again,
Stronger and wiser than before,
Showing you the new me,
Unbreakable and Unhurt.
Something you had lost while someone had gain...

Pretending

Pretending,
When will we both get tired,
Tired of playing games,
Hurting each other inside out,
Tearing our heart apart over and over again...

Why are we pretending to hate when there is so much love,
Will we ever say what we want without lying,
Will we bare the truth about our love someday,
Will we have the courage to love each other soon,

Pretending...
Always hiding the truth,
Always running away from the one we love,
Always closing the door to our heart...
Always longing for one another...
Is pretending the only way to keep us together?

Someday I pray for the courage to tell you the truth about my heart,
But till then,
Promise me you’ll try too...
Try to tell me about you heart, your love.
I like to believe someday with a little faith and strength with lots of courage,
We both might finally love each other truly and forever...

Love Will Come again..

Love will come someday,
Bringing a new hope in her life,
Healing all painful wounds,
And opens a new chapters in her life.

Love will come someday,
Teaching her to live again,
Telling her the how love will make her dream again,
Opening her heart to someone worthy but not me.

Love will come again someday,
Hopefully by then,
The one God had fated for her will love her all his life,
He would be all she ever need.

Love will come again someday,
By then she’ll forget how her heart broke,
She’ll forget how I went away leaving her alone,
She would learn to treasure herself more.
And be much smarter then before to get her heart break again...

Give me a reason to forget.

Someday if God permit,
I’ll forget that you ever shared the same world as I did,
I’ll forget that you ever walk the same ground as I did,
I’ll forget that you ever did breath in the same air as I did,
I’ll forget that you ever stood by me once,
I’ll forget everything about you every memory of you casted away from me.
No... If I could ask God one thing,
I’ll ask him to erase your touch,
Your kisses and my heart from the face of my very soul...

It’s not that easy to live after getting your heart broke,
And then trying to make it through over night.
I love you so dearly yet you still choose to leave,
I didn’t recall making life any difficult for you,
But you still choose her above me,
If I had knew heart break was coming for me,
I’ll take the chance to leave you first,
Since the signs of you having another affair was so clear,
I became blind because I loved you too much,
So now here alone... crying I only had myself to blame.

Give me a reason to forget...
It’s not simple to let you go,
And let you leave me here traceless...
But they say love is not the tools you use to fix a broken bond,
Since I never once held on to you to make you stay,
Guess I had it with you...
Maybe I always knew this day would come,
I was only avoiding the reality of it because I’m scared,
Scared that I’ll have nothing if you left,
But somehow...
When you said those words aloud for me,
Everything about our love becomes clear.

Give me a reason... to forget,
It was betrayal that broke my heart the most,
The things you said and did make loving you the most poisonous venom,
Sometimes i prayed you had told me about her,
So at least when the truth surfaced,
It’ll hurt lesser then watching you both making love on my bed.
And now.. How could you just expect me to forgive you,
When my heart refuse to acknowledge your love...
Nothing you do can undo the knife you had stab through my soul...

So if God permit time travel,
I hope he’ll turn back time to when you and i meant nothing more,
Then a stranger walking passes one another...

Allah swt love...about woman.

You might be married to the worst man ever,
Like Asyah was married to Pharoah,
But it didn’t change her loyalty and love for Allah SWT.

You might be married to the best of man,
Like a Prophet of Allah SWT and still not saved from the punishment
-like the wife of Prophet Lut a.s.

You might not be married to any man,
Like Maryam a.s., and Allah SWT can make your rank
higher than any women on Earth. Know your prioritise.

The only relationship where you’ll never have your heart broken,
Is your relationship between you and Allah SWT.

Teach me about love

How do one forget heartbreaks?
How do one seek the forgiveness from the past?
How do you learn about love, if you never fall in love before?

Remember how you broke her heart,
Her first love, you were all her first,
But you snatch her heart only to tore them apart.
You made a fool out of her love,
Crush them with your lies and buried it deeper then the ocean depth,
That day you told the truth,
Remember how she stood there behind you in tears,
The pain of her love crying in silence,
It’s not easy to cry for that broken heart,
Taking the blow for the first time,
Swallowing the venom all her life,
Ever once you had thoughts of what she become because of you...
Never, all you knew was that you never got hurt,
And that is all you ever know...

Even after many years come and gone,
Her heart harden and hurtful,
She can never truly love nor can she cry for love no more.
She never ask for love to come yet someone who stood by,
Loving her all his life since he first saw her,
Never asked nor seek that love from her all because of you.
Always patiently waiting... waiting for that one day,
You’ll come to see him only to love him with all your heart.
Love is the time you take to wait...
Always waiting and seeking the love you know you deserve.