Someone I love

Someone who loved me...
With all his heartbeat.
Someone I’ve loved just the same all my life.
He whom I adore above all...
I can never run to,
Everyday I spent wasted in tears,
He whose heart I had to ignore,
Everyday I prayed for the strength to push him away,
He whose love I cannot return the love.
I must not let him know I suffer just as he did.

I spent my entire life in search for true love,
I wanted to love that someone only once till my last breath,
But life had caught up to me too quickly,
Leaving me a reality I must face alone.
Why must love only come now?
It’s bad enough that the truth cannot be undone,
Love comes bringing along a promise I cannot keep,
It’s unfair that I loved him with all my heart,
But I had too little a time to share and to hold,
It’s unfair that we had loved so much to be hurt like this,
But I must be fair to him,
It’s too sad to know he had a past,
His fear of not able to hold and forgive,
Tells me how much I shouldn’t hurt him,
Not the second time.
It’s unimaginable to think how he survived all through these years,
So if I truly love him, then I should stop now,
Stop before this affair goes too far,
So far that I cannot turn around and let him go.

He...
Someone I spent all my life waiting for,
A love affair I’ll cherish with all my heart.
I know loving him was a gift,
A miracle someday I would thank God... for giving me.
But for now, please help me not to want him in my life,
Allow me to continue to love him in my silent ways.
Teach him to live without me even if it hurts,
Tell him everyday how I truly did love him,
During the short period that we were together.
Give him strength to forget me soon,
And Dear God please...
Heal his soul the one I had snatch its happiness from,
Return him the love I took away from his heart with someone worthy but me...