Mistakes...

It was a mistake...
Thinking I could change everything...
Who was I kidding?
I'm not God nor was I "His" best creation.
I can't undo a certain past I barely remember,
I can't fix a heart shattered in despair because of love,
I can't give out the happiness that people kept asking for.
I did try to understand and accept whatever I was before and everything the future had written.
But this one mistake I cannot undo has a price that no lifetime is long lived could used to pay its dues.
Meeting Her was the biggest regrets in my life.
Wish I had a clock turned anti- clockwise then I wouldn't repeat it twice.
If only i could say out the words I arranged in my mind,
Maybe... Just maybe the regrets might just lessen a few digit less...
But because it impossible that to undone what is done,
I'm stuck here feeling all miserable about my life.
Even as much as I want to change the past or take a peek at the future,
God created life and time in such that the most impossible to undo in neither the destined past or the blinded future.
Mistakes we make now is only a payment of what the past we had and future we need to amend.
Mistakes might not necessary be all bad,
Sometimes some mistakes is a start of a better life ahead.
While some carries a price that you barely live longer to watch it heal.
Mistakes do not always comes with forgiveness...
Even the kindest soul don't forgive that easily.
It takes more of a person heart to see beyond a person lies to give the forgiveness that one deserve.
Mistakes...
Either you live with them or live for them... Nothing changes...