My Wife... Her love

A woman, a mother...
Her heart felt pain.
Words can’t describe my thousand apologies right.
I never knew any person heart bigger than yours,
A man like me,
Whose mistakes was just loving someone else apart of you,
You accepted everything,
Even the worst pain I awarded you with...
A betrayal. Venom that kills you.
The result of my affair I cannot hide away.
Now, even after so many years passed,
I never could say my apologies right.
You took my sins and blessed that unloved soul with love,
You took my child in with open arms,
Even her mother couldn’t love her like you did.

I was ashamed of my action.
How could I be a man?
If I cannot even love my child how can I return your love...
I was weak when I watch you from that corner you stood,
I remember how you looked at me,
As I reveal the truth about my affair with someone.
And how the result I cannot hide.
A wife can forgive a husband mistakes but not every wife,
Could love him after taking in and accepting his betrayal.
But you did it when I couldn’t even forgive myself.
I choose death because I cannot accept the truth.
I choose death because I was embarrassed.
But my deepest regrets till the moment I die,
Was how I didn’t love you enough to tell you “I love you” everyday.
I’m sorry that I left first, leaving you behind alone to answer my mistakes.
Truly ... I wish my sorry was enough...