I ... behind you

I was always there...
Always a step away from holding you.
I moved along with you every day,
Every step i’ve taken...
Every years that passed me by since we met...
I’m always right here, behind you.
My feeling can never reach you.
Even when i’m practically pouring my heart at you,
It’s his love you’ve embrace above mine...
But knowing he was your love, my best friend.
I swallow my pride as a man by calling myself your friend.
I was your wall when you almost collapse.
The support you knew would come to your comfort...
No matter what happen i was always a ring away.
But you still couldn’t see me as a man i was before you.
The pain i felt watching you cry for his mistakes.
The hurt i've watched you swallow for his love,
My heart cried for you every time...
I wisper the words of seperation,
Screaming it in my heart so loud,
But everytime i turn to you.
All the words i've arrange inside, wouldn’t be heard from my lips.
The moment i picture your crying face,
My heart can’t bear such pain...
As much as i hated myself for being so helpless...
Even with so little i could give for you,
I rather love you in silence and continue to be that fool,
Always there beside you... always behind you.

For the last time...

Dear Love,
I know you’re hurt...
The throbbing pain in your heart hurt,
I know... I really know that pain there.
Don’t hide it by lying,
That only makes the pain heavier to bear.
No matter how hard I try to help you,
No matter how much I give to love you longer,
All the effort and precaution I’ve taken,
Were never enough to protect the wall of your heart,
From getting the hurt I’m about to inflict...
Even when I apologise and cried on my knees,
The pain you swallow for loving me,
Only cause your heart to break apart cruelly...
So if you ask anything of me...now,
Separation is all I could offer to ease your pain.
Forgive me.
Let me take this time by making this right again.
Allow me to leave you, let me go...
I need to try my best to save you from the destruction of my love.
Even if it’ll hurt me so for letting you go.
From the bottom of my heart...
If I could give you the last miracle in this love,
Is the ability to give you another person love from the beginning...

when I'm hurt... for you my love

Love... when it hurts,
The pain becomes unbearable.
The hurt I felt inside torn away my soul,
The words you say can’t even calm me down.
My heart that hurt,
Can’t recognise your face even when I loved you so much.
My eyes become blind because my tears can’t stop its flow...
Slowly I see myself thrown in darkness,
I cannot love anyone anymore, not even myself.
Look what you did to me. Look...
The word Sorry don’t carry any weight from your lips,
Everything you tried to do for me now,
Only deepen my wound with the knife you used to stab me.
How can you call this love?
When all you ever did was kill me from the start.
Separation comes to me...
Sooner than I expected from you,
My love became a lie because of your words,
My heart broke when I saw you run to her,
Why must you be so cruel?
Love... it hurts,
I scream out my pain.
But you still had to leave me ... so go away now.
Before I die in pain for loving you first.
Don’t let my love becomes a regret,
It’s too much for me to swallow.
Don’t make me regret my love for you...
Leave me.

Maybe I.

i should never get this eyes,

if i knew seeing is believeing.

i should never get this eyes,

i f i knew it could kill to see.

i should never get this eyes,

it it'll bring such pain to my heart.

i should never get this eyes...

if life become this miserable for me.

i'm used to the darkness in my surrounding.

because i was born that way...

i live my life from day to day,

even when it was a struggle to move about..

at least i was at my most happiest time.

now that i got vision of the world i never knew...

initially i thought i was such pretty places here...

but i regreted it.

i take it back...

i never want to see the him or the world ever again

knowing with eyes to see i could find love,

find some one who'll love me for real.

i met that one person i thought was fate...

then i'm so wrong...

he didn't love me at all,

he was pretending to love me...

my eyes reminded him of his love,

it's his love he saw while staring at me

his love left him here...

so i was just a replacement...

he can never truly love me.

i shouldn't have met him,

i hated my eyes,

i never want to see again,

i wish i was blind again.

at least i could hide myself from being hurt like this.