That day... You went away

I did my best to not cry,
I did my hardest to hide my tears,
But somehow it all kept overflowing,
I didn’t want you to see me like this...
So forgive me for loving you first.

That day...
As we part, you kept walking...
You turn around and walked away...
While i stood there watching you do so,
Had you turn around just once,
I swear... somehow from my face you’ll
See me asking you to stay.

Stop right where you are now...

Stop saying sorry,
Stop apologising to me,
The wound you inflicted to me,
I’ll never forget them,
I fear I may never recover from this hurt.

Stop telling me about your regrets,
Stop saying thing like “it’ll be okay!”
This pain you’ve given me,
It’s a nightmare in my sleep,
I’m scared to be awake and asleep.

Stop coming towards me,
Stop finding me,
I don’t need any more venom,
This poison is burning my soul,
I’m dying inside can’t you even see that.

Stop lying to me,
Stop pretending like you loved me,
Your words... they are knife sharp,
Stabbing me from inside out,
I’m bleeding is that not enough?

Stop... don’t ever fix my heart,
Such pain can’t be recovered overnight,
They say you’ll change,
Stop ... don’t even try to change for me,
You’ll only hurt me more later.

You should be going now,
I don’t need you here,
To amend the pain you imprinted on me,
The wounds you’ll never understand why it even bled,
How can you fix my heart...?

Stop, just stop...

Would you please... let me leave?

These days will help me to slowly forget,
The torment I felt for loving you,
The hurt I felt for staying here longer,
The regrets I’ve swallow for you all this time,
The silence I’ve live in to protect you,
Everything ends today...
I wouldn’t be the foolish one to continue,
I’ve had it with my love,
I’m tired now,
I can no longer bring myself to lie and pretend,
I cannot turn blind on myself,
To not see what as obvious as breathing.
You cheated on my feelings,
How could you do that to me,
I’ve given you everything,
I’m not a thing that does nothing anymore.
I’ve watched enough.
How could i be so stupid?
I forgive you the first time,
Because I thought you’ll change,
I’m foolish aren’t I?
To have forgive you too many times,
They say someday I’ll regret forgiving you,
Well it’s true... I did
You could never understand,
As to why forgiveness comes too easy for me,
It’s because I loved you too much,
I thought you understand that..
But you just had to ruin everything for me,
Remember that one evening when I sat right across you,
When I asked if you wanted a surprise,
That day before I handed over that small box to you,
I got up and went next to you and gave you a kiss,
A kiss on your left eyebrows,
Do you know what it meant?
It means...
“I know deep inside you, you’re sorry that I found out,
And because you made a mistake here you’re very sorry that I got hurt for it.”
So if now I ask you would you let me go please...?
Would you forgive me and allow me to leave?
If you knew what I felt when I give that kiss...
Then give me a "Yes" for a change...

Another words...

Something I had to give up,
I wish I had held on longer,
The thing I lost I cannot say,
I pray it’ll find freedom sooner,
Hearts that left broken,
Wish I had enough time to fix it,
The soul that became useless,
I hope it’ll find some meaning.
The pain that bottled in too long,
Someday I hope it could disappear,
The hurt we both shared,
Wish it would heal faster,
The love that vanish like the wind,
Somehow come back after the break up.
The entire wound we left in each other heart,
Stay bleeding away even when the tears stop flowing...
Time will just leave us both here,
Wondering whether we made the right decision then.