throw me away

My mistakes....
It was not yours to carry,
It wasn’t yours to hold,
What i tried to hide,
Was not easy for me to hush away with it.
But now that the tables turned,
You already knew,
So don’t carry on pretending,
Like an idiot when you were hurting inside.
Let me go, leave me here.
My mistakes,
No matter what the reason i did it for,
The blame is not for you to shoulder,
What you should do now is leave,
Because no matter how much you want to stay or
How much i’ve loved you for,
This will only wound us both in the end. So leave.
There are things that time will make it change for the better,
But not my mistake, there will always be some hurt left,
Even after so many years passed by.
Don’t tell me about love,
Love is only second to how you felt inside now.
Don’t force me either.
Because is so much i could take,
But another scene of your tears falling.
I’ll take this last gamble and push you away.
If you don’t leave first,
You’re making it harder for me.
So please go away, throw me first.
Like how you would throw away a useless toy.
I wouldn’t blame you for my tears.