Don’t

Don’t turn back, I tell myself that everyday...
But why is it, that every sight of her from my memories,
I kept looking back at what I left behind.
Don’t forget, I tell myself that everyday...
But when I yearn to be hold by her,
My words... I forgot them already.
Don’t hold on anymore, I tell myself that everyday...
Still, whenever I saw a glimpse of hope,
In her action and be mine again...
My faith betrays my pride by making me cling on for more...
Don’t be hurt, I tell myself that everyday...
But when it’s her... I forgot my words,
And always end up getting more hurt by what she did.
Don’t cry... I kept reminding myself that everyday...
But why is it that thought of her,
Brings so many tears to my eyes.
Don’t... Don’t ever forgive...
I promise myself I never would...
But I can never seem to keep my promises...
Because I love her too much,
That even when the most painful of pain,
And the most hurtful of betrayal.
A mother gives her child; I choose to forgive her,
Because i wanted her life to be better,
Even without me in her life.

Stop... Please Stop.
Don’t live your life like a pathetic child,
I tell myself now and forever,
Because i must wake up to realise,
That no matter how much i pray for her to stay,
She never will... i should never loved her too much,
I should never want her in my life,
I should never kept her with me,
So if i choose to move on without her,
Would happiness stay with me longer?
I deserve to be happy, don’t i?
So i must still learn to throw all of her out of me
Time... oh dearest time...
Tell me you’ll make it better for me,
Tell me you’ll teach to live better,
Tell me you’ll take all my pain away,
Promise me you will...
Time, no matter how long you take,
Please show me a life where there is no memories of her,
And no more pain from all the past wounds,
Help me heal them so i could forget...
I will try my hardest, that is my promise....
So don’t... don’t leave me here by myself again.