He...

He…
Is the first guy I know…
One that made me laugh so much,
Who always complete my sentences,
Keep me smiling even when I’m down…
The first to scold me when I did the dumbest thing…
The funny part is… he worries about me all the time.

He…
Could have been the best thing in my life.
Would have been the special someone,
I almost had my heart flatter for him…
I once tell myself,
If ever he said he like me, I would accept.
But thanks to someone….
I force him to go…

Don’t ask how I did it…
Just know, I did it in the most cruel way.
Even when it hurt…
I did it without a second thought.

Truth is…
I did cried when I turn away from him…
After saying so much,
I had regrets right after that.
I did hesitate a moment there…
But I didn’t have a choice.

If only he was here…
I swear to you…
In one glance, my reaction gave way to my true heart.
He could tell that I miss him badly.
Because he once said…
”just by looking deep in your eyes, I know what you are thinking.”
Amazing, isn’t he?
I didn’t believe at first, but I’ve seen it a couple of times…
How he instantly knew my thoughts…

Had I been in better position…
He, I’ll never let him slip thru my fingers.
I would want to always have him by my side…
Sharing my everyday with him…
That would have been the best day in my life….

Belaian Ibu

Ibu...
Terlalu banyak masa meninggalkan kita,
Terlalu banyak pahitnya dari yang manis antara kita.
Terlalu banyak perkara menyakitkan hati kita,
Terlalu banyak rahsia antara kita,
Tak lupa juga pada tangissan yang sentiasa mengalir dari mata kita.

Orang akan berkata semua itu perkara biasa,
Kerana kita “ibu dan anak” yang penuh dengan kasih sayang dalam hati nya,
Mereka boleh kata apa pun...
Tapi pada hakikatnya..
Segala yang berlaku antara kita adalah satu sejarah yang menyedihkan.
Antara kita... ia bagaikan mimpi ngeri di waktu malam dan bayanggan nya sentiasa menghantui jiwa di siang hari...

Aku pernah melihat senyuman mu.
Kasih sayang yang kau curahkan pada insan yang baru kau lahirkan,
Cara kau memeluknya dengan lembut,
Sentiasa mendampingnya setiap saat,
Tak pernah ku lihat kau melepaskan tangannya.
Semua itu pernah ku lihat dari mata dan cara ibu ku buatnya.

Wahai Ibu...
Pernah kah kau melihat hati ku...
Yang menagih kasih sayang mu,
Yang mendahagakan perhatian mu,
Dan yang sentiasa rmerindui sentuhan mu.
Aku lah insan yang tanpa berkata,
Menyimpan seribu harapan yang terlalu lama terbuku di hati...
Sesuatu yang tak dapat kau rasakan.

Ingat kah engakau pada pertemuan kita yang pertama ?
Aku melihat kebencian dari mata mu,
Sesuatu yang tak pernah aku lihat bila kau bersamanya.
Kata- kata mu sangat menyakitkan hati..
Mana pergi kata- kata sayang yang pernah kau ucapkan padanya?
Aku menyedari diri ini, bagaikan masa silam yang tak harus diunggitkan.
Lalu kau pergi membawa diri,
Meninggalkan aku menagis sendirian.

Entah mana terletak silap ku...
Mungkin aku terlalu mengharap.
Bahawa suatu hari aku akan mendapatkan kasih sayang yang aku ingin kan.
Adakah aku tak dibenarkan untuk disayangi atau di hargai?
Adakah aku insan yang ditakdirkan untuk kehilanggan segalanya?

Akan tetapi... jika aku dapat memutar kembali pada saat pertemuan kita,
Aku tak akan menanya kenapa aku di tinggalkan?
Aku tak akan tanya apa pun....
Aku akan tetap berdiri di depan mu dan terus mengharap...
Mengharapkan secebis kasih sayang khas untuk aku....
Sekali aje....

Barely made it...

Today…
I will not cry for you anymore.
I will not dwell on the past that I cannot change.
I will not carry this burden any longer.
I will not let guilt weight me down anymore.
I will be strong… I must.

My heart…
From now onwards I can’t turn back,
This decision I’ve made,
Must be the only reason for me to keep moving forward.
Nothing can hold me back.

Remember, my heart…
What I had to give to be standing here.
Every sacrifice I've made,
Carries a lot of price.
I’ve paid each with a piece of my heart.
Till I barely had enough to pull myself through.

Time… my heart.
It’ll make it easier for me to live again.
It’ll make me breath again,
It’ll give me strength to build walls around my heart.
So I’ll never have to live like that again.
But hopefully with time...
It would slowly erase my pain and heal these scars living on my broken heart.

Truth about Love...

I did loved him,
Even as i’ve force it out of me...
Till we part we did love with all we had...
It pains us, but it’s what we choose to give.
No one made that painful decision for us...
No one even knew that we would end up apart like this.
But still I wished they would atleast tell me the truth about love...
Before we went this far...

No one tell us,That love is pain
No one tell us, That love is hurtful
No one tell us, That love is sacrifising
No one tell us, That love is waiting
No one tell us, That love is patience
No one tell us , that love comes with a goodbye...

You see,
We loved thru pain,
Even when going gets tough and hurtful,
We choose to sacrifice our love for the one we cherish,
As we knew our time is coming,
We waited patiently for the time to say goodbye.....