Regret for love

Regrets for love
Since the beginning…
Never thought I could cry so much for love,
Never knew what a broken heart feels like…
Or how crazy I got just by missing you.

Meeting you then falling in love with you…
Was unexpected!
At first it was your smile that I thought was enough…
Then I became greedy. Because…
I don’t just want your love, but I wanted you,
All for myself…

But time and again even as I wanted to hold on to you longer…
You existence tend to slip through my fingers…
I can’t express the regrets I feel watching you cried your heart out…
Even as I’m forced to turn cold….
Back then…
No word could tell you how I wanted to hold you in my arm,
Before I said thing that left you crying a broken heart.

The biggest regret I had was letting you go in a most painful way…
After which you cried hopelessly in his arm…
If only I had enough time to make it right again I would…
But how do I tell you that my actions then was protecting you?
Even as I cried and sympathized with my own heart…
It was yours, your heart that I broke, was why I felt hurt at the same time…

I tried my best to not let you see me cry…
But till the very end… I realized I couldn’t take it in anymore…
As our heart broke… our distance grew wider…
That even as I was standing behind you I fail to hold you…
I missed you badly… how do I tell you so?
I feel like running to you again… every time I’m face with you
But because I wanted to protect you, I tried hard to silent my pain…
And watch you leave…
Even if it’s the last thing I could do for our love…
I would….