Your Deepest heart..

Somewhere deep inside your heart,

This hurtful feeling grows,

Deepen with every passing minutes.

You denied what you felt bravely,

Yet in silence your heart still cried desperately.

The problem with this heart,

Is that... it takes in too much,

All the happiness and pain... everything,

Till your heart goes numb and then harden.

You still loved her right?

But just couldn’t say it out loud.

Just as she had loved you to have to leave,

Where she could stand away but still see her shiny bright star.

If you understood her heart, and all that worries her.

Then you must have understood why she had to leave.

But just how much do you really loved her?

To be brave enough... Take a leap of faith,

Embrace you love...  Assuring her,

That no matter what pain and worries she had...

Your love will have the strength to erase everything.

Someone I can't fogive...

I couldn’t forgive her...

I loved her so much,

But she loved someone else.

I didn’t hate her for trying to leave me behind alone.

But for her to just leave this world permanently,

Not allowing me to see her anymore,

I hated her for that.

Her only last words to me were...“I’m lonely.”

She got tired of waiting for me,

So she got so lonely that dying was better than staying by me.

She didn’t make an excuse to try lying or hiding.

She bluntly told me how she needed him more than me,

How this painful loneliness made her feel like dying.

And so she had to leave...

I got so hurt because I just loved her too much.

That our love got sour,

And I blame myself for allowing her to go off like that.

I didn’t try to hold her back,

Only because the person in front of me,

Her eyes aren’t those that once only looked at me.

There wasn’t any tenderness or warmth.

Just a broken soul so empty and desperate to be free.

I'm your friend... I'll always know you.

I’m just a friend. Your best friend.

Who stood here watching you all my life.

I know everything about you.

What you like...

How you smile lovingly...

And even the things that hurt you.

I knew them well so you can’t lie to me.

What you buried deep in your heart,

That you didn’t want him to know,

I already knew.

You loved him so dearly, so deeply.

That even my love could never shake your heart.

This happiness you seek in me,

Is never enough to sustain that smile I love so much.

He loved the word “Heaven”,

Only because it gives a perfect happiness vibe to him,

But what is a perfect happiness...

If not able to share it with the person you love.

Because his heaven isn’t completed without you in it.

How I knew you... I too knew him well.

I dare to tell you that he love you just as much.

So I’m telling you that everything will be better from now on.

These sacrifices you’re making, trying to make everyone happy.

Is the same sacrifice he’s making to make you happy.

So as I’m let you go, promise me one thing.

Find your heart... the love you’ve been longing for.

Even if you only had one chance,

Bravely go to him and ask for what your love.

And don’t regret it.

Safe Haven - For You, For Him... For them

She was someone... who meant the world in his life.

Even as she had passed on,

Her memory still lingers in his soul.

He loved her so dearly.

That even God couldn’t change his heart that easily.

It was hard for him to go like this.

Knowing him...

He’ll only try to hold it in as long as the world could stand still.

So she wrote you a letter...

With hopes that he’ll find someone like you to live up for,

Knowing you would be here in time of need.

She could only thank God for hearing her prayers,

To have you sent to him... to them.

She wanted to meet you... be with you in some ways,
Share with you her thoughts and understand your heart...

In hoping that you could loved him and her children just as she did.

It gives her the confidence knowing that you might just be what they needed.

Siapa awak di hati saya...?

Awak..

Ingat lagi soalan yang pernah awak tanya dahulu?

“Siapakah awak di hati saya...?”

Awak adalah cinta,

Cinta yang selalu saya dambakan...

Memang saya mencari kesempurnaan dalam diri awak,

Kesempurnaan yang kini saya lupa..

Lupa bahawa awak adalah cinta yang menyempurnyakan saya.

Bila saya lepaskan awak pergi...

Bila saya tinggalkan awak kesepian dan terluka,

Bila awak menagis sendirian di saat itu kerana saya...

Saya faham, Dan kini saya sedar...

Apa yang saya kehilangan, Saya terlah hilang...

Cinta yang selama ini saya mimpikan... ianya adalah awak.