The second... First love

Remember how my first love ended.

How I regretted it... by not being honest and lied.

What if I tell you that my heart still feels like it did back then?

These 5 years could never erase how my heart broke,

But I still loved you with every heart beat.

If only you could see how I struggle with my heart again.

Maybe someday you might just notice me,

Standing behind you just likes your shadow.

It true most relationship is about two people.

But for me... only I was indulging in my emotion, alone.

But I never blame you.

If we both had love like we said.

But Love is just a start, then what...

Can you not leave but stay by me?

Everything for me is already here...

My work, my dreams, and my place are here.

But if we had loved like I want to believe it...

Can you stay not just for me... but because you want to.

I know I can’t take your dreams away.

But I loved you. Can you still stay for that?

Hush... my love...

I know what you are feeling now even without words.

You loved your dreams more... more then you could love me.

I get that ... that’s why I’m not going to make you stay.

Or choose between me and your dreams.

Just go... Go wherever it takes you to.

My first crush...

That day... Our summer.

It begins when I start falling for you.

The words I had rearranged at the back of my mind.

Going through every detail on how it started.

Thoughts of how to let you know what I had felt.

Planning on how to make it a perfect confession.

Every minute being myself and moments with him,

They become so essentially beautiful. Still...

Summer is almost over.

It would have been great if I just took the courage,

Courage to walk right up to him and say it.

But I got scared. And more afraid...

When I heard that he would be leaving.

Leaving to achieve his dreams...

I refuse to say anything that could change his mind.

Instead my coward self encourage him to pursuit it.

He had always been the one with dreams as wide as the globe.

To roam the strange city and a set foot in places I only dream to have imagined.

But that is what I loved so much about him...

That summer when it ended...

My first love ended with me biding my goodbyes.

Of course I have some regrets...

But it’ll hurt more if I had force my feelings on him,

Him who had to leave... in order to live his dreams.

Cinta di Hati Qaseh

Bukan mudah untuk kita ungkapkan rasa cinta.

Sedalam mana kita mencintai seseorang.

Hanya takdir yang akan menentukan...

Siapakah Dia yang akan memiliki sekeping hati kita.

Wahai kekasih ku bernama Arash...

Kaulah cinta pertama.

Seindah pertama kali cinta mula berputik dalam hati ini.

Seindahnya kenagan yang aku dapat.

Memag dari Mu aku mengenali cinta...

Cinta pertama... walau singkat masanya bersama...

Tetapi penuh dengan manisnya.

Itulah kita pertama kita...

Tapi awak bukan untuk saya.

Itulah takdirnya.

Untuk Wahyu.. cinta terakhir Ku.

Biar lambat tibanya cinta  kita asalkan ianya abadi.

Itulah erti cinta  aku untuk Wahyu.

Bukan mudah untuk aku belajar mencintainya.

Dia banyak sabah dengan kerenah aku.

Dia cuba menerima hati aku kala aku masih mencintai Arash.

Dalam sepinya dia banyak memakan hati sendiri.

Walaupun dia mengharap kan cinta dariku,

Dialah juga insan yang ingin melepaskan aku,

Demi kebahagiaan ku.

Aku sedar sejauh mana keihlasan hatinya ..

Semakin aku menyelami hati budinya...

Aku sedar padanya...

Cinta itu anugerah, satu pemberian

Cinta harus diberi dengan sepenuh hati yang ikhlas,

Walaupun kita tak dapat memilikinya...

Seo Hwa Sacrifice

I know how much it hurts you.

The reason that leaves your heart bleeding in silent.

The fact that you had loved me too much...

And yet the reward that you reap out of the kindness,

Is just another heartbreaking betrayal from me.

In those eyes that scream the untold pain.

The silence that unfold a painful tale...

The heart that know no warmth...

I was the cause of all that pain that’s eating you inside out.

I just didn’t know how to erase that hatred inside you...

And make you realised how much I dearly missed you over the years.

I wish i could at lease take a pinch of that hurt i inflicted.

In exchange and hope that it might bring your old self back.

So I lay down my life to gamble in hope that you remember me.

Try to recall the pain of loving me... The day I broke your heart.

I promise you ...

I’ll take every anguish you portrait and accept with open heart.

So promise me you at least try...

Try to recall your old gentle self that i loved so much...

Try to recall how much your heart had loved  the kindness,

Try to forget this angry venom that hurt you...

And i shall always promised to love you ... forever

                                                               ~ Gu Family Book ep 21