Cruel Love

Was it so bad that my first love was a mistake?

The whole world witnessed how I shattered from this mess.

The whole world knows that I tried to steal a man from a woman.

Married but unhappy...  is him.

And even as he confessed the truth,

As I shun him away... i gave my heart a space...

A space where greed soon overtook what was right making them all wrong.

I wanted to keep him to myself,

Tried to steal him away right under her nose in board daylight.

What can I say...? I was once that person, so desperate to be loved.

I paid the consequences with everything that valued in my life.

My passion for music that I cannot reach.

The parents I loved and adore whose heart I rip to pieces.

My heart that I had, pride and my self-respect...

I gave all that for a man whom can’t even love me with all his heart...

Worthless... How stupid of me.

While he continued to live, it was I who couldn’t move on.

Dragging me every minute and living lifelessly empty.

It not fair... that I was punished for a crime to love...

Ijab dan Qabul : Hasrat Zara

Irfan...,

Mungkin awak akan kesal dengan saya.

Maaf kerana saya terpaksa meninggalkan awak sendirian.

Saya tahu awak mencintai saya, Tetapi...

Kerana saya lebih inginkan kebahagiaan untuk awak,

Saya terpaksa meninggalkan awak.

Walaupun saya marah kerana awak ada penganti.

Sekarang saya redha dengan semua ini..

Tetapi kenapa Dia yang awak pilih...

Kawan baik saya sebagai penganti saya.

Saya tahu, Kini awak rasa bersalah..

 Sebab awak dah tahu kenapa saya ingin perpisahan ini..

Saya tahu masa saya dah tak lama..

Saya tak nak awak sendirian bila saya tak ada di dunia fana ini..

Saya tak nak lihat hati awak hancur dengan rasa bersalah terhadap saya.

Tolong saya .. Irfan.... tolong saya,

Bukan niat saya nak lukai hati awak.

Cinta awak adalah anugerah yang sangat indah.

Dah saya ingin menghargai saat terakhir saya..

Melihat kebahagiaan di wajar orang yang amat saya cintai.

Mungkin saya pentingkan diri sendiri...

Tapi cuba awak faham apa yang saya rasa...

Cuba awak tunaikan hasrat saya yang mengiginkan perpisahan ini..

Memang ia akan menghancuri hati saya ..

Tapi sakitnya tak lah selamanya...

Tolong saya Irfan... jangan seksa hati saya lagi.