Bukan Saya .... Tapi Awak...

Bukan saya yang menyerah,

Tapi awak yang tak berjuang.

Bukan kerana saya lelah menunggu,

Tapi awak yang terus berlari jauh dari saya.

Bukan saya tak setia,

Tapi awak yang tak hargai kesetiaan saya.

Bukan saya tak mencintai awak dengan sepenuh hati.

Tapi awak yang tak mencintai saya lagi...

Saya telah cuba memberi yang terbaik,

Meskipun saya tahu yang saya tak sempurna,

Tapi saya berusaha untuk menjadi yang terbaik untuk awak.

Saya terima semua cemuhan dan kemarahan awak,

Walaupun hati saya terus terluka dengan perbuatan awak.

Tapi saya dah penat mencuba membuat awak mencintai saya,

Saya dah kalah dan mengalah dengan cinta awak

Saya dah tak mampu untuk mencorak dinding hati awak,

Saya redha takdir kalau awak perlu pergi dari kehidupan saya.

Dan saya berdoa supaya Allah SWT,

Menemukan insan yang mampu membahagiakan awak. Tetapi...

Kalau di suatu masa awak menyedari cinta yang awak telah leraikan,

Saya mengharapkan kala watktu itu hati saya masih untuk awak,

Dan jika ia bukan, saya berdoa awak tak lagi datang mencarinya.

our love

Sometimes,

Love fadeseven for us,

We spentyears being together,

Facing everythingand still storm forward stronger after the fall.

But whenyour heart changed,

I know thereis no place for me here anymore.

I’m notangry because you left,

But I wishedyou had given me time,

To pullmyself away from you.

I knew allalong that you had her since the last you called,

But Irefused to say anything.

I wanted youto tell me yourself.

But no... Youchoose to leave after one goodbye.

I wonderedif it’s because I never showed you,

That I washurt by this love... or

That youblindly assumed that I’m fine with all this.

I wished youhad seen me that day,

After youhad called it end,

I wasn’t asstrong as you thought.

I spent thewhole day crying.

You nevercould guess how hurt it felt.

When yourheart got torn and broke just like that.

That day weended, I just lost someone important to me.

And yet Ihad to lose you...

But now ileave my faith to God to help me through..

May be wewere never meant to be.

I acceptedthat now.

I believenow that maybe... just maybe,

Someone outthere is meant for me.

As to howyou found her, someone whom completes you.

Can you Imagine...

Can you imagine how I actually feel...
That very day when you left me here alone.
It was the most important day,
Yet I stayed out in the cold through the night,
Believing you might just come by..
I waited and waited for hours,
But you never showed up.
Then I received a call saying that you left,
I tried calling you in denial,
Only to hear words that hurt my heart that day...
I'm foolish aren't I?
My heart broke..
All my dreams shattered to pieces,
I loved you too much,
That as you left me here by myself... alone,
I foolishly waited before I finally come to my senses,
How I stupidly waited for you whom never actually loved me.