Seo Eun Gi love part 2

I don't know what to say,
I was too heartbroken to see the tears he cried,
I'm not sure how much words he said was true,
It scares me that they might just be another lie,
So I blinded my eyes, and run away from hearing the truth.
I didn't want to love him anymore then I do,
I wanted to return him the pain he inflicted in me,
My guilt that cause me to loose my sanity,
I wanted to stop my heart from yearning to want him,
I missed him so badly that it becomes so unbearable to breath,
Every time I wanted to run to him,
I bit my lips, and slashed my heart from leaving.
I cried everyday while saying my curse for him,
But my heart still wanted him.
I once left everything and run straight to him,
I left my family, threw away fame and rich and everything for him,
I truly loved him... But when he hurt me with the word "for revenge".
My heart died... I wanted to die so much to want him to die too.
But now I'm confused. Did he really pitied me when I lost my memory?
Or Was I just a toy he used for revenge again...
Is there even a chance for me to hope,
That in this period that I forget, he actually truly loved me for me?
Can I still hope for it to be true? ...
I know my heart, even when I wanted to hate him,
I never could bring myself to do so... Because I really loved him.