You were right...

Mom,

You were right about a few things...

I just refuse to hear what it was.

I’m just selfish... I finally admit it.

I shouldn’t have made them stay.

If only i had denied them at first hand then,

Maybe all of us wouldn’t be badly hurt by this tragedy.

You were right about me,

I don’t deserve every bit of their kindness,

I don’t deserve to beloved by them dearly,

I don’t deserve their warmth even when i’m cold,

I don’t deserve to held on to them even if i was drowning.

You were right about them,

That their love and kindness was an infinite gift,

That only belongs to you whom had loved them ever so dearly.

They were your world and your heart,

Yet, I was wrong for snatching them away...

I know it’s a little too late to apologise now,

But I’m truly sorry... so sorry.

Sorry that I took their love away from you,

Sorry that I tried to kept things that wasn’t mine.

Sorry that you got hurt as I held on to them every minute...

I didn’t meant for such tragedy to happen,

Had I knew, I willingly take your dear son place in death.

I know my words wouldn’t change the reality,

But if I had the power to undo,

I would have given him the life you had asked,

Then leave them all like how I did the last time we met.

I should have push Dad away,

And now, I’m just sorry that his heart broke because of me.

Even the strongest tape nor glue,

Can never put pieces of his heart back together.

Yet my selfish self chose to held on even if I’m burn in hell for it.

You were absolutely right... I’m such a devil.

You see Mom...

You could never understand my hunger... for a family.

Having him as a father even as he don’t belong in the same whole as mine,

Someone who would hold you before you fall,

Someone whom you could just trust to be here whenever you need.

You don’t know how he makes me feel like a kid I had not been all my life,

He cried with me when I’m in pain.

He stayed by me that night I was running a fever.

He even held my hand when I had nightmare that one night till dawn.

His kindest words warms my heart when imp frozen here alone,

Every day with him here... I’m just thankful he came to my world.

My brother, he completes my emptiness as a kid.

He just makes me laugh and whenever he held my hand,

Or smile that cheeky sweet smile of his,

That melts away the wall I had punished myself by being trap in,

The breaks them so easily...

He completes me in so many ways...

But still you were right,

I don’t deserve them. I only had myself to blame for all this...

You were right that I should never take them way,

I should never snatch your sun,

I should have just drowned in the cold bitter night.

I know now the consequences of my action,

And for that I gladly accept the price....

I'm sorry... that I broke your heart....