Dia

Dia...
Terlalu yakin dengan citanya,
Sedangkan aku yang tak mampu membalas kembali cinta itu.
Dia kata yang kita berdua saling mencintai dan sentiasa melengkapi satu sama lain,
Tetapi sayangnya tak satu pun benda tentang dia aku ingat.
Dia yang terlalu mencintai aku,
Tidak jemu mendampingi dan menemani aku setiap hari.
Tetapi dia juga yang aku takut berada di sisinya.
Adakalanya dari matanya yang kerap memandang wajah ku,
Pandangannya yang jelas mengugapkan hatinya yang sentiasa mengharap...
Sentuhan lembutnya yang mencurahkan kerinduan dalam jiwanya,
Kata - katanya yang menyentuh naluri wanita ku,
Tetapi dia juga yang aku langsung tak mengingati...
Mengapa dia terlalu yakin yang suatu hari nanti dia yang aku perlukan,
Dan betul katanya bila dia jauh,
Dialah insan yang hati ku merindui...
Mengapa dia terlalu sabah menanti aku yang sederhana dan kekurangan.
Sedangkan diluar sana beribu insan yang lebih cantik dan cukup sempurna,
Menanti jejaka sepertinya...
Dan setahu aku antaranya adalah ada seorang yang sentiasa menantinya..
Tapi bukan aku...

If You Forget Me by Pablo Neruda

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine

Someone I love

Someone who loved me...
With all his heartbeat.
Someone I’ve loved just the same all my life.
He whom I adore above all...
I can never run to,
Everyday I spent wasted in tears,
He whose heart I had to ignore,
Everyday I prayed for the strength to push him away,
He whose love I cannot return the love.
I must not let him know I suffer just as he did.

I spent my entire life in search for true love,
I wanted to love that someone only once till my last breath,
But life had caught up to me too quickly,
Leaving me a reality I must face alone.
Why must love only come now?
It’s bad enough that the truth cannot be undone,
Love comes bringing along a promise I cannot keep,
It’s unfair that I loved him with all my heart,
But I had too little a time to share and to hold,
It’s unfair that we had loved so much to be hurt like this,
But I must be fair to him,
It’s too sad to know he had a past,
His fear of not able to hold and forgive,
Tells me how much I shouldn’t hurt him,
Not the second time.
It’s unimaginable to think how he survived all through these years,
So if I truly love him, then I should stop now,
Stop before this affair goes too far,
So far that I cannot turn around and let him go.

He...
Someone I spent all my life waiting for,
A love affair I’ll cherish with all my heart.
I know loving him was a gift,
A miracle someday I would thank God... for giving me.
But for now, please help me not to want him in my life,
Allow me to continue to love him in my silent ways.
Teach him to live without me even if it hurts,
Tell him everyday how I truly did love him,
During the short period that we were together.
Give him strength to forget me soon,
And Dear God please...
Heal his soul the one I had snatch its happiness from,
Return him the love I took away from his heart with someone worthy but me...