How?

How to love someone...
How to truly love someone?
Someone who already left you here for so long.
Someone who never care what you went thru in past,
Someone who never loved you before?
How do you love someone whose heart is never here for you?
Whose love was never meant for you to hold?
How do you hold them close to tell them what you felt?
If they never cared for you over the years...
How do you reach out to them to hold their hands?
When deep in their heart they wished you just disappear.
How could you try so hard to look at them in the eyes?
Whose stares leave the feeling of disgusted in you.
And still say a little pray for their happiness above your own.
Don’t you just hate yourself for being a fool in hunger for their love?
Don’t you hate them for leaving you here?
Don’t you despise them for all the pain and sorrow they put you thru?
Still....
How could you be so noble as to forgive even when your heart is?
Crushed to pieces....
You only have one heart,
Not too big, just a size of your fist...
But it's noble and generous of you to forgive them
Even when it hurts so much....
How do love this kind of people?
Honestly they'll never understand... i know.