love

I’ve seen true love in those eyes,
That knows no boundaries.
Still believe that no sacrifice is worth
as long it’s for love.
Through those eyes I’ve seen,
Sincerity and pureness,
That comes from a place as small as a heart.
In every heart beat,
I’ve not only seen
but felt the meaning of loving someone.
I never believe in love,
but now I saw it’s existence.
Although looking at you,
Loving someone…
Is never an easy task
neither it journey is smooth.
Even so, when others say love can blind you,
I still want to believe in this love.
For this kind of love even a cold heart like mine,
would be touched by its presence.

I'm sorry

I’m sorry.
I shouldn’t have used you.
I shouldn’t have met you.
You were nice to me all the time.
But look what I did to the cheerful you.
I broke your heart. I made you cry….
I wish I could tell you how sorry I am.

His love left me too soon,
Even before I could learn to live without him here.
He left bringing my heart with him.
I became soulless without him here.
There is a hole in my heart…
I couldn’t lie…
I needed him to be here.
Holding me close every night.

Then you came…
When I need someone close.
You held me when I cried.
You loved me when I’m still broken.
You stayed with me even when I turn cold…
You did everything to make me happy….
Everything…
Except hurting me….

I didn’t realised how selfish I became.
Every time you here… I felt him close.
When you smile at me, it’s his smile I saw.
When you held me close, it was his touch I felt.
Your touch felt like his…
Even the was you smell… just like him.
In so many ways you are the same.
You reminded me of him…
That I couldn’t help it,
But needing him more.

I should have told you sooner.
I shouldn’t have held on.
It’s because I loved him so much.
I can’t let him go…
It’s because I wanted him here…
I hurt you that bad…
I felt guilty.
Even now knowing it all will hurt you.
I can’t help myself from needing him more.

I know my “sorry” doesn’t mean anything.
But that is all I have for you.
I can’t stay because you’ll get hurt,
I can’t lie because the truth will burn.
The fact that I can’t love you….
That will break you more.
Let me leave now…
Because this is my way of protecting you,
From continuing being hurt by someone as useless as me.
I’m sorry…

Behind you

Do you know it rained yesterday?
After I turned away. I cried in an alley.
Every time I saw you struggling,
I predicted that a separation would come…
Because I’m aware that I lack too much,
I can’t stop you from leaving right now..
You may be leaving right now, but I’ll be there for you.
So I can keep my distance, so I won’t be a burden.
On this path, if you ever fall from exhaustion.
You’ll be able to lean against me.
Behind you…
Someday, you might need…
Behind you, my love, touch again…

You will hate me for the hateful words
I say without expression,
Do you know of the tears fill my eyes as I turn my back on you?
You may be leaving right now,
So I can keep my distance, so I won’t be a burden.
On this path, if you ever fall from exhaustion.
You’ll be able to lean against me.
Behind you…

I Silent my heart... for you

Knowing your love is irreplaceable.
I silence my heart.
And run away… leaving you there.
I tried to hold back my tears as I faced you.
I say all those harsh words to you.
Making you leave…

I silence my heart,
As you began to cry.
There is love between us.
That starts off as a mistake.
I silence my heart,

holding on
To this unbearable pain that keeps staining my heart.
There was never us from the beginning.
It’s something I must come to accept.

I silence my heart,
Tuning away,

walking as fast as I could.
Hoping that by me leaving,
You’ll get better.
Try my love…

try harder.
I know we could let it out.
Bring out the hatred you have upon me now.