Sides of me..

My sides...
I may be brave and strong from the outside but when facing reality.. I'm as fragile as a glass. I'm so fragile that i breaks easily in a single touch. I'm so transparent that people don't notice me even as I'm standing in a crowd..

People don't see me cry even when I'm torn apart.. It's only because I've never actually cry in front of anyone before.. No one except this heart, knows what i really feel inside.. But i feel pain by just a drop of tears that often seem like bleeding inside me.. Unknowingly

People don't care what i feel because I'm suppose to be empty and emotionless.. What they never knew was the existence side of me that feels and longed.. Times when i envy what others have that i cannot touch and times i feel what people feel Thur their touch..

And if you ask me what loneliness means i can tell you... Because i grew up with that feeling everyday in my life. Can you imagine what i had felt back then, In school when i need to use money to buy a friend. How at a single moment it felt so real that lasted with the bitterness that never goes away..

Unexpectedly I am someone whose very emotional despite my strong character.. There are moment in this life that i yearn to be special in someones life.. Be the strength to people and be the best of myself.. Having family that i could count on, and become best friend to someone.. I wanted to touch life's and fall in love just once.
And in every breath I have, I only asked for just a chance that one day someone would come and see me for what I truly am from the inside..