I need to shield him,
I promised you, I’ll save him from this pain.
But to do so... I must first hurt him.
I’ll break him up and hurt him first then hopefully,
Praying hard that time will slow down this torture for him.
I cannot let him live in the past that will consistently shadow him,
So if I want him to be happy and free,
I’ll take all this, everything that could hurt and worries him,
Everything that he’s guilty of... plus everything there is,
Swallow it in and erase it as I leave him.
I need to be stronger on my own.
But don’t you dare say I didn’t love him,
I did... I loved him so much that hurting him...
Is breaking my soul more that I think dying is better.
If you knew what I exchange this heart for,
I did so he could be free, so he could be happy, for him,
Is this not enough to tell you, I love him so much?