Mirror
Look into that mirror,
You’ll see a beast trap in a flesh of a human.
One that is trap from within,
Is a hungry and angry being.
The kind that people could never read its thoughts,
But feels its existence through action.
That’s what I am…

I could be in a world where people would say
“You have a heart of an Angel”
But truth is, I’m no angel and neither a devil…
Honestly… I don’t have a heart at all.

I’m a beast that kills living miracles.
The type that sees goodness through torture and inflicting pain.
I neither own nor had anything then,
But if you knew me well you’ll see I had nothing at all….
I could bring so much pain to people,
Yet when facing guilt…
I was always the one to cry.

Unlike others who is surrounded by people,
I could never match to them at all.
I fail to have real people around me!
I was always alone where ever I go.
Maybe because I’m too lonely,
That is why I’m often trapped in my own space.
For that I tell you…
I don’t need anyone at all…

Regrets… something I stop having since then.
Back then, it might seem that due to my stupidity,
I lost an essential value by giving it another kind of ending.
I walked out a lifetime of pain to save them,
And giving it a chance to restart a life without me…
Now looking at them, knowing that they are doing fine,
Make my life easier to breath.
If you ask me “if I could turn back time would I fixed all that is broken?”
NO… not a bit of it… no regrets

So here I am,
Looking at myself through this mirror,
How I wish I could tell you it’s me I see as a person.
But sadly…
Deep inside me I crave for revenge that could bring everlasting sufferings,
I see myself growing up only to hate what I’ve become.
I live to bring pain and torture to people.
Would anyone still consider it a human?
Looking through this mirror….
I see myself as a beast and no longer a human…

So Yi Jeong 's heart

So Yi Jeong’s heart…

It is said that loving someone’s with a past is not easy…
One in which you must search where the heart was left behind by time…
You either find a cure or becomes the venom to that chapter…
It’s also said that first love is an unforgettable memory…
Especially one in which involve a person that grow inside you…
The one that mould you to become what you are now…

Ga Eul, unlike others...
You got hurt by love and still search for that special someone…
You would cry your heart out and still learn to stand later…
You face heart breaks with a brave heart…
You persistence in your beliefs,
That’s what I hate to love about you…

You were right from the beginning..
That I lied about not believing in true love…
“That there is someone made for us…”
I would believe that if only I grew up in different circumstances…

You love me for me…
You accepted my past when I was in denial,
Instantly..
You knew a side of me that I tried hard to throw away…

You reach out to hold my hand even as you knew,
That loving me would bring you pain…
You tried to hold on even when you begin to tear…
Even so,
You never fail to embrace me as I’m crying inside…

It was you, that I’ve change…
I now see what I’ve been missing on 4 years ago…
I let an opportunity slip by because of my stupidity…
You were right that letting your love go is a regret of a lifetime…
I regretted it so bad that my heart goes off even as I cried.

You were there… You always have…
Because of you I could find courage to embrace love again,
I realized that it’s time for me to let go of her and move on like she did…
I will never let this chance pass by me again...

Now believe me when I say it’s you that I’m looking at..
Not as a replacement but to love you like you have for me…
So wait for me and don’t be afraid to hold me longer…
Trust me now...
Because from now onwards it’s you that I want for a lifetime…